wow today is nuts.... i just got closer to one of my best frends... which i didnt think that was at all possible but im glad that it happend..cuz we might take our relationship to the next level (not like that you pervs!) but its really awsome.. i guess ever since I talkd to God last night.. everything has changed... i really wish that I would have listened to Him and everyone else around me earlier so that I could feel like this sooner and such..... but yay im happy that I have only tommorrow left of summer school..then the rest of summer I am going to work on getting myself straight that way i can acutally pass and do my best this year in school.  did i mention that i have a job when i go back to skool?im so happy... that means that im growing up.!!! yay! ohh yeah..uhhm anyways about this girl. shes totally awsome. i dont know how long i have known her. but it feels like forever. i feel like she is almost my sister... heres our convo tonight.

fallout652 is me obviously and i put her there just beucase i wasnt sure if she wanted everyone to know her screen name.. i dont really care of you all know it.. cuz i mean if i dont really like you... you'll know n i just wont talk to you.. so yeah..

her: ok
her: its gonna take you like... 2443587 minutes to read it
her: whoa.. thats like 2 million minutes lol
her: or over
her wow.. well, not that long
her: more like 348 minutes
Fallout652: lol no it wont take me that long i read really fast
her: ok well, at least 10 minutes
her: for real lol
Fallout652: lol im almost done really
Fallout652: with the paragraphs
her: nuhuh
Fallout652: yah
her: you are done with all of it?
Fallout652: no almost though
her: oh,... i was about to say there lol...
Fallout652: lol mmk im done now
Fallout652: who is the other person that you wanna call from the internet? but you didnt wanna mention her name?
her: ....
Fallout652: uhhm ok you dont have to tell me if you dont want to
Fallout652: sorry didnt mean to intrude
her: no
Fallout652: ? im lost hehe
her: lol... ok.. i dont care for trying to confuse you tonight...
her: lol
Fallout652: lol ok
her: i didnt mention her name.. cuz i knew you would read it...
Fallout652: well you really dont have to try haha
her: lol
her: no.. its fine
her: lol...
Fallout652: uhhm am i thinking right ?
her: um.. i dont know
her: i think you can easily guess who that fourth person is ...
Fallout652: uhhm are you meaning that to be me or something?
her: um.. yeah
Fallout652: wow thats awsome... im flattered..but i dont wanna run up your phone bill or ne thing like that
Fallout652: and i dont want what you're scared of happening to happen... but if you think that it would be ok..then i have no problem with it..
Fallout652: like i dont wanna scare you away or ne thing by talkin on the phone.. cuz i dont want our relationship that we have to be torn into shreads just the same as you dont want it..
her: yeah...
Fallout652: but hey if thats hwat you want.. then i have the faith ya kno
her: faith?
Fallout652: that nothings gonna tear our relationship apart that you're scared of
her: you say that now
her: #1, #2, and #3 said pretty much the same thing
Fallout652: but am i anything like those other girls?
her: um... if i can say one thing and have it make sense it would be that you are more "Christianized"... if that makes any sense at all
Fallout652: yeah that makes sence
her: the second... she is still a Christian... and the other two.. when i called them, they didnt really care for God that much
her: but the first one has really became "Christianized"
Fallout652: yeah i totally understnad
Fallout652: but i dont want you to get the impression that im like your other friends
Fallout652: cuz i dont know them.. but i mean from our converstantions.. i dont think that i am like anyone else..do you?
her: no of course not
Fallout652: okay then
Fallout652: whats to say that the same thing will happen with us that happened with them then?
her: um... i havent known you that long.. and actually that just popped into my head
her: but of course, i havent known any of them a long long time...
her: the one i probably knew the longest before i called was that second
Fallout652: yeah... i totally get what you're saying.. but if you think that its ok.. then i have no problem with it.. i mean i trust you..
her: no way!
her: you cant trust me
Fallout652: i do trust you
her: you dont know me tho...
her: im just a stranger that ive met on the internet
her: ina  chat room
her: or wherever it was
Fallout652: i mean i opened up to you.. and i have prayed for you.. and you've prayed for me.. and you've helped me through tough times.. and im sure i've helped you.. and i mean come on.. thats qutie a frendship if you ask me..
her: *speechless*
her: :-X
Fallout652: is that bad?
her: um... no
her: its just...
her: i almost wanna cry
Fallout652: why do you wanna cry?
her: cuz what you said... it means a whole ton more than what you might think
Fallout652: really?
Fallout652: thats awsome
her: ...
Fallout652: are you ok?
her: ... just...... overwhelmed
her: sorry
her: you must like think i have like some problems or something
Fallout652: nooo its ok.. i totally understnad.. no you're fine in my book..everyone has problems
Fallout652: but its how we deal with those problems that makes us all differnet
her: remember how i told you that God hasnt spoke to me in a while now....
Fallout652: yeah...?
her: ... God just somehow spoke to me
her: He... like.. hold  on
Fallout652: ok.. im waiting .. ill be here
Fallout652: im wirting about you in my xanga
her: ok.. sorry... lol
her: aww!!
her: better be good!! nah.. jk
Fallout652: lol it is dont owrry
her:
Fallout652: lol
Fallout652: so what were you saying
her: oh yeah
her: my bro came in... and i thought he would want a turn on the internet
Fallout652: ohh ok..but he dont?
her: no
her: hes just bored
Fallout652: haha
Fallout652: tell him to go run outside if hes bored
her: lol
her: lol
her: he jsut bumped his head on my window
Fallout652: haha
Fallout652: what a weirdo haha

yeah.. totally awsome convo... shes like my sister that i have known forever. and i love it. cuz she is someone that i can open up to. and be goofy around. but it sucks that we live so far away... but one of these days.. im gonna see her.. and im gonna talk to her forever... cuz shes awsome.. shes like my sister.. and i love her... gotta go... bye bye

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this is a letter from jesus to all of us here on earth,...we really need to pay attention to it!!!

To whom it may Concern,

I just had to write to tell you how much I love you and care for you. Yesterday, I saw you walking and laughing with your friends; I hoped that soon you'd want Me to walk along with you, too. So, I painted you a sunset to close your day and whispered a cool breeze to refresh you.I waited, you never called, I just kept on loving you. As I watched you fall asleep last night, I wanted so much to touch you. I spilled moonlight onto your face- trickling down your cheeks as so many tears have. You didn't even think of me; I wanted so much to comfort you.

The next day I exploded a brilliant sunrise into a glorious morning for you. But you woke up late and rushed off to work- you didn't even notice. My sky became cloudy and My tears were the rain.

I love you. Oh, if you'd only listen. I really love you. I try to say it in the quiet of the green meadow and in the blue sky. The wind whispers My love throughout the treetops and spills it into the vibrant colors of the flowers. I shout it to you in the thunder of the great waterfalls and compose love songs for birds to sing for you. I warm you with the clothing of My sunshine and perfume the air with nature's sweet scent. My love for you is deeper than the ocean and greater than any need in your heart. If you'd only realize how I care.

I died just for you.

My Dad sends His love. I want you to meet Him. He cares, too. Fathers are just that way. So please call Me soon. No matter how long it takes I'll wait because I love you.

Your Friend,

Jesus

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"It's impossible."
All things are possible. (Lk 18:27)

"Nobody really loves me."
I Love you. (Jn 3:16)

"I can't go on."
My grace is sufficient. (II Cor 12:19)

"I can't figure things out."
I will direct your steps. (Prov 20:24)

"I can't do it."
You can do all things. (Phil 4:13)

"I'm not able."
I am able. (II Cor 9:8)

"It's not worth it."
It will be worth it. (Rom 8:28)

"I can't manage."
I will supply all your needs. (Phil 4:19)

"I'm afraid."
I have not given you a spirit of fear. (II Tim 1:7)

"I'm always worried and frustrated."
Cast all your cares on Me. (I Pet 5:7)

"I don't have enough faith."
I've given everyone a measure of faith. (Rom 12:8)

"I feel all alone."
I will never leave you or forsake you. (Heb 13:5)